I guess it could be due to a mid-life crisis? As I am 30 on the dot right now, quit my job without a clear direction of where I want to take my career. But hold up, I think that is the problem right there. My career..The word “career” does not mean my purpose…I realized time and life is really short and I want to make the most of it for the next 10, 15 and even 20 years! Do I really want to spend the next 10 years working in a corporate career doing something that I thought was meaningful? There were aspects of my career that I learned a lot from and I did enjoy the creativity on some occasions. However I never really felt fulfilled..I was just working because, well, I needed to work.
Before I knew it, 30 years flashed by and I never asked myself, “Am I happy?” It dawned to me that I was unhappy, truly. No matter how hard I tried to be positive and told myself, “just wait a few more years then you can start living your real life.” Thinking back, it was so silly that mindset of self-sabotage. Well, I learned there is no waiting and no right time for me. Either I start seriously planning and taking the steps towards my authentic life and self or I don't (for whatever reason..fear, social constructs, etc).
So now, this is me taking the steps and actions my heart and soul has been guiding me to. I still don’t have a “real job”(whatever that means according to society), but I am doing something for once that I find happiness and fulfillment in. There are somedays that I feel a wave of worry about my future, but I am working on a technique called, focusing on the good, the now and the happy. Now, after accepting the situation for what it is, I let it go and think about what makes me happy — which is researching recipes, ingredients and raw materials for incense making (as well as other future projects and products I want to create).